not your ordinary girl.

assalamualaikum  and salam dua dari tiga ratus enam puluh lima hari.

cuti masih lagi berbaki satu minggu empat hari, I CRYY

i think tak semua orang tahu and tak perlu diberitahu pun actually, yang my dad is not feeling well, which now dia dah kena buat dialisis. The thing is most of my daily life like changing 70% *aku rasa* and not sure either ke arah lebih baik or sebaliknya. dont get me wrong. aku bukan nak salahkan my dad or nak melawan takdir or nak jadi tak redha or apa apa je lah. the thing is aku just nak cakap when the important person dalam hidup kita is not capable enough to do all the man things, so yeah we as the girls at least, kena tahu macam mana nak handle that situation.

frankly speaking, my break is not like other persons, where orang lain like boleh go for a vacation, then boleh hangouts dengan friends and yeah bebas untuk buat semua yang people always do when they are on vacation. mostly my break is like to take over all the house chores and be my mom's personal assistant.

bila my dad kena buat dialisis, dia memang kena stop doing menda menda berat and most of time dia akan lay on bed or just relax, sebab after dialisis dia akan pening, then tak bermaya macam tu lah. so my mom kena buat every single thing. it's very menyedihkan sebab mama bekerja di sekolah and bila dia balik rumah dia kena handle kerja kerja rumah. so yeah...

being me you have to know every thing. macam last two days, i kena perbaik filter rumah and guess what, paip di belakang rumah tu dah berkarat so kita orang kena pergi kedai hardware and find the exact pipe and balik pasang with all the tools, yeah very nice experience.

then just now, i have to change all the bulb, ambil tangga and yeah like ganti semua lampu yang terbakar. it is not just me yang kena tahu tukar bulb, but all the family members regardless what gender you are. then, you have to know how to use cordless screwdriver sebab akan banyak drill dinding and sometimes i akan cat perabot, cat rumah and many more.

and another thing is most of my time at home, i have to be a gardener! mostly bangun pagi i akan cabut rumput, trim pokok, tebang pokok and many more. so the thing yang nak sampaikan kat sini bukan nak belagak or merungut, but bila mana kau dapat cuti semester, balik rumah and help your fam. jangan tahu bangun pagi then main game then hangout then tengok movie and so on. but bukan jugak bermaksud hang kena duduk rumah all the time. set the priorities la. apa yang perlu bantu bantu kat rumah dulu, then pergilah mana nak pergi.

i always bear this in my mind, jangan balik rumah kalau kau balik pon mak ayah rasa burden. sebab dulu aku pernah buat macam tu and when my mom said hang patut duduk hostel ja, i was like .... *deep* gila.

and belajarlah buat semua menda, at least ada something dalam diri hang. bukan hanya tahu habiskan duit mak ayah ja. manyak menda lagi yang perlu dihadapi and till now, i am proud of myself.

be extra ordinary,
aidasakinah.